Fatigue Fridays

After what has been one of the most hectic weeks ever,

I have been looking forward to today for what seems like forever.

(ha! rhymed.)

All I wanted to do was sleep in and enjoy my day off,

but when I had to drop off my sister at school early this morning,

I knew I wouldn't be able to just come home and go back to sleep.

I decided to take advantage of the extra time and sort through some sewing projects.

I've been dreadfully un-inspired lately and I miss wearing things I've made.

So sat at my desk and though, "ew."

Maybe what's so uninspiring is the fact that my workspace is such a tragedy. My desk is old and crumby and falling apart. I always have random crap all over it and I haven't dusted in gawd knows how long.

I caught a few glimpses of Project Runway last night and their work spaces are so amazing, lots of room and prettiness!

So I got to work. I had to drill(!) some new nails into desk to get it all nice and un-saggy, fill in all the warps and holes with wood filler, and paint it.

 One badass power tool,

six long screws, 

two bottles of wood filler,

sandpaper,

two cans of spray paint,

and 3 trips to Michael's later,

I was finally finished:

 Now, I'm even more tired than I was before, in dire need of a shower, and have the worst looking nails in blogland.

...but at least now I'm inspired :)

Only She Who Attempts the Absurd Can Achieve the Impossible

 I've gotten a little OCD this week. In fact, instead of sleeping in and doing nothing like normal people do on their summer breaks... I've been nonstop cleaning. So much so, in fact, that I've had friends on facebook tell me to shutup already with my cleaning posts because it seems like that's all I do. Lol. (Also, please go check out THIS blog post, I read it on one of my few cleaning breaks and I thought it was CRAZY that it was exactly what I was doing too.)

For me, cleaning is something I do when I need to get my mind focused. It helps so much to go through all of my stuff and think, "Yea, I don't need this anymore, throwing it away.." or "Oh my gosh, I could use this for this other thing!" (that usually happens when I'm cleaning my crafts cubby. Yes I'm 19 and still use the word "cubby." Shutup. lol)

Lately a lot of things have been going on in my life that I cannot control, and I feel like that's when I start to really get antsy and uncomfortable, and want to change things up, whether it be in rearranging my room, or reorganizing my closet or vanity, it's just something I need to do because it's something that I can control. I know I've talked about this on my blog before, but I feel like this week has been really different. It's almost as if every little thing I've ever said to myself came rushing at me now that I have free time: "Oh I need to dust my keyboard," "I should sort these loose beads, I'll need them when I embroider that dress," "Ugh I wish these cloth ribbons were organized so I could find everything faster!"

To me it was almost a challenge, "Alrighty Trish, You've got 3 weeks until summer school, how much are you reeeally going to get done? READY, SET, GO!" And well, I went. This is alot of what I did, along with cleaning out my closet, computer, sewing pile and organizing a LOT of stuff for donation (mostly books), along with my already long list of household chores:

*Cleaned off and reorganized the top of my dresser where I keep all my special trinkets:

 *Took everything off of my desk and hung it up on this little shelf for easier access and more desk space:

(That Doritos can is full of receipts lol, and I want to paint my room that second purple swatch from the top VERY VERY soon)

*My vanity is always clean and organized, it just needed to be wiped down, I spill loose powders all the time...:

 *The top two drawers where a total mess though, so I organized those:

 *My biggest feat was my craft cubby. I couldn't even slightly open it without thinks falling out and I could never find ANYTHING. But I got it done without too much headache, plus I found a couple patterns I forgot I had and now I'm really excited to start some new projects,

 (That baby wipe container has a bunch of old lipstick tubes/compacts that I want to customize, I'm really excited to start that project too)

 *This is where my OCD got SUPER insane. I sorted my bead collection. I used my mini tea set to sort. Ha.

 It took FOREVER

 I ran out of little containers so I made paper ones.

I told you, insane...

...but I finished!!

While I know it may seem that I'm being totally insane and uptight about needing a super-clean, organized room, I promise that's not why I did it. I just needed to go a little crazy and physically throw everything I owned in a pile and say, "This is everything in my life, and if I can't find a place for it, it goes." I think we should all do that every once in a while, and not just with our stuff, but with everything in our lives.

 I know there's alot of beauty in chaos and disorganization. Rock concerts where you go totally crazy in a mosh pit, random outings with friends that turn into crazy adventures, and even the emotional chaos that comes from falling in love. The chaos is like a huge wave, turning everything topsy turvy, washing away the old while bringing us the new. I know the beauty in that. That's why I wanted to get all of this out of the way, so it wouldn't keep nagging at my tired mind. Now that I've finished, I feel so much more comfortable knowing I've gotten rid of so much clutter and nonessential trivial things. For now, I'm not trying to make anymore waves. I've craved for too long the ability to just be able to float. Now I'm just enjoying the stillness.