It's funny the way life is sometimes.
Boring and monochromatic. but then in an instant it's like... I'm wearing pink glasses!
Maybe that isn't the right analogy... circle of life? nah thats taken I think... oh how bout! ...
Yes! The cliche roller coaster analogy!
But I'ma change it, because people always say the highs are the highs and the lows are the lows, right?
Well those people are idiots.
I mean c'mon, the high points of a roller coaster are the most boring parts! Everyone knows its when ur racing to the low points is where the real thrill is!
But forget that...thats not what I'm trying to describe... Its an entirely different feeling.
But...my words are..idk...hiding from me?
I can only describe it as well...
..those moments right before you get on the ride.
That kind of stupid bore and laziness...you complain and wine and you want anything else, literally anything else, than that boredom.
But then, without even realizing it really, you're strapped in.
And in a microfraction of a second you kinda think to yourself,
"Wait, what am I doing??"
But before you even fully comprehend whats gonna happen, or even TRY to think about getting off, it just goes!
(And if you've ever ridden Superman you know what I mean)
You're literally thrown into this whirlwind of motion and vulnerability, and the forces acting upon you are so far beyond your control you don't even really know what to feel...
Heck its just a whole mix of feelings they haven't even invented words for yet!
That....that's kind of how my life's been at the moment. These last few months have been a perpetual day at Magic Mountain. Haha.
Hanging with friends when I can, Waking up earlier than I ever have before, Going to college classes, Meeting people, Learning things!
Aside from the occasional AP English class Lord knows I haven't felt like I was truly learning things since I was in elementary school...
But I can feel myself learning how to think like I've always known I could.
Learning how to use my body in ways I never dreamed I could.
(yea yea that's what she said...I'm talking about ballet! Hahaha)
I've learned how to drive! and be financially responsible for myself...
and (don't find me cold hearted for saying this) I learned how to be resilient.
I learned how to say goodbye to the past, and unapologetically move on.
I'm not sitting around in this lazy funk anymore, and I love it.
Im having my adventures :)
So I guess, thats my life analogy. For Now.
Basically there's the Known. The boredom. That line of never ending anticipation.
And then there's the Unknown. The chaos. The human race's biggest fear.
Pick one.
